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?! Appendicitis August Part 4 ?!

Oh hey again,

We have almost reached the conclusion of this crazy month August. In my last post I discussed my journey from short stay and my hard fight that led to the small win of finally being admitted onto a ward. The CDU2 (surgical ward).

I awoke on what must of been the fourth or fifth day of being in hospital roughly st 8am, when I was delivered breakfast, I ate it and then was given my morning meds and introduced to the morning staff. A nice nurse came and did the usual obs routine, blood pressure, temp, heart rate etc. Everything seemed normal, she walked out of the room for a moment and then came back in holding a tiny little medicine cup with two round white pills. It was my first lot of medication, the nurse watched to make sure I swallowed it and then walked away. It was a little past 10AM now and mum had arrived back to visit me in the ward. The next few hours felt like so long, like being in a drugged up hospital daze of nurses and doctors walking in and out and eating hospital provided meals and trying to watch tv and every time I was just about to fall asleep someone else would come in and wake me up with something different, just like clockwork.

The elderly lady next to me had been discharged, I couldn’t believe how old she was, she was 91 and still fighting fit walking to bathroom and doing everything for herself, she was only in there for a small fall and couldn’t wait to get back home to her cat. I had the room to myself for most of the day, I thought I might of had an alone room for one nigh, I was wrong, late afternoon another lady was wheeled up from the ED department she was a bigger woman, she had a drip connected to her and every five minutes she  would howl in pain, so there went any chance of me getting any sleep.

Mum had been with me all day so I sent her home because I didn’t believe anyone was going to see me on this day. However not long after mum left two doctors, a male and a female gynecologist came to see me, I had gotten up to go to the toilet when they arrived so I listened to what they had to say from the chair the hospital provides for guests and patients. Some major discussion between doctors and the different medical teams must have happened because when these doctors came to see me they told me the best news that I had been fighting for the whole time, they said;

“We are going to do a diagnostic laparoscopy procedure to rule out any gynecological problems and insert a Mirena IUD for contraception and to help with the pelvic abdominal pain.”  

(a surgical procedure in which a fibre-optic instrument is inserted through the abdominal wall to view the organs in the abdomen or permit small-scale surgery.)

(Mirena is a type of long-acting, reversible birth control called a hormonal intrauterine device (IUD) and is manufactured by Bayer Pharmaceuticals. An IUD is a small, flexible, T-shaped device that is implanted in the uterus.)

They explained to me that my surgery will be tomorrow, but they weren’t too sure when and if it would even go ahead or if it would be moved back because I was just on the emergency cancellation board and said thank you, hoped back into my bed and then they both left. The girl then came back in a few minutes later with surgery consent forms and then explained them to me and what this medical procedure would entail. She left. I then rang mum straight away and she said that was good news and then to message her tomorrow before I went into surgery. That night I had a drip inserted to keep my fluids up, as I was no longer allowed to eat anything. I was exhausted so I was given pain meds and went to sleep.

The next day, the day of the operation all happened super fast, I was woken up at 5am for all the nurses to do the usual Obs, Bp, heart rate, temp and give me morning meds. I could feel and hear my tummy grumbling from not eating, and no my body kept pushing out my drip so the male nurse on morning staff took it out. At 7am I was given a surgical gown to put on, I remember having this queezy feeling in my stomach and someone arrived at my bed, a surgical nurse and said “Someone will be up to get you in the next few minutes”.

I smiled and said “Ok” even though I was freaking out, I then rang mum straight away, She hadn’t even gotten up yet and I told her I was about to go down any minute now, I was a bit irrational because I kept asking what if I went down and she wasn’t there, she just replied and said I’ll be there when you wake up. I literally got off the phone to mum and within seconds a ward person had come to take me down to the operating theatres, I remember thinking gee that was fast, wasn’t even 10 minutes. I was parked on my bed in a waiting bay where the nurse who seemed to be organising all the theatres and what surgeons were in which one could see me. Opposite me was a little girl in a bed getting ready for her surgery. The nurse at the desk could tell that I was having a bit of anxiety and nerves, she said that’s completely normal, she offered me to go to the bathroom and then put a warm blanket on me. I laid there for about 20 minutes and then asked if I could use the bathroom again, she said yes, I went and very little came out, I told the nurse and she said that’s normal its nervous wee, because your anxious about the surgery. I literally hopped back into a bed when a surgical nurse came round and got me, she introduced herself and then wheeled me to the operating waiting prep room. There I met the junior anesthetist and the head anesthetist, I had told them how my drip had come out and how they  had to put a new one in even though my veins are really fine and deep. Just writing and talking about it now I can still feel the pain from that moment. He smiled and said I will try my best. Whilst they were trying to jab me in the right spot to be able to put me to sleep, a surgical nurse had come in to see if I understood the procedure that I was about to undergo to which I said yes. It was funny and lucky because it just so happened to be that the strong female surgeon who believed me happened to just come out from that operating theatre and walked into mine she said to me “While we are there, we will just take out your appendicitis as well, so that you or no one else can ever blame your appendicitis again.”

I just nodded okay and the anesthetist had finally gotten the drip in, I was prepped and ready, they then wheeled me into a giant metal silver operating room with a black operating chair table, it literally looked and made me feel like I was in Grey’s Anatomy or Private Practice, or House or something like that. They pushed my hospital bed right up next to the operating table and told me to scootch my touche until I was laying on the black operating table. Once I was stablised a bunch of doctors and nurses swarmed around me, the put a blood pressure and heart rate monitor on me. A cold thing that sticks to your leg, made sure I was wearing beautiful surgical stockings, a nurse was holding my hand because she could see that I was getting a bit worried. The anesthetist then said he was going to start giving me a little bit of stuff, it was funny because I knew I was going to have to have a catheter in and all I was worried about was that I didn’t have surgical undies on. They said it shouldn’t matter and then someone brought over a giant blue tube thing that either had oxygen in it or sleeping stuff because I was talking to a nurse and within seconds I was out.

The next thing I remember is having a nurse calling my name to wake up, and suddenly my eyes slowly opened and I was in recovery, my blood pressure was really high and the pain was still pretty bad so they kept pumping me with stuff until it went down, I was almost on the full amount of whatever drug they had given me, when I was down to a pain level of two they wheeled me back up to the ward where mum was waiting for me. I do not remember much of the rest of the day except for the fact that I had apparently been really chatty. Pretty much everyone in my family had come to see me, once I had talked myself out I kept going in and out of sleep.

(Before Surgery)                                   (after surgery)

I had a few more difficulties with people before discharge but that’s another story, I was discharged two days after my procedure on the Sunday which meant I had spent a whole week in hospital fighting with doctors. I was sent home with pain meds and was told I would get a follow up phone call a month later.

Fast Forward to the start of September an unknown number appears on my screen, I answer the phone it’s a surgical doctor doing the follow up phone call, he starts by asking how I am doing and then proceeds to explain the procedures that were done. I almost laughed when I heard his final sentence. His final words to me were;

“We were lucky we took out your appendix when we did, as it was really inflamed.”

I said thank you and hung up. I then punched the air like a fist bump as I was right the whole time, I knew something was wrong with my body and I was glad that no matter how exhausted I was I never gave up the fight. I was and still am very thankful to all the people who offered to put me through private medical, to the kick ass girl surgeon who believed what I said was real, to the private gynecologist who made a lot of phone calls to the public system. This is me saying thank you I couldn’t have done it without you.

and to all you people out there who suffer from an invisible or unseen illness please remember to always believe in yourself, fight for your rights, remember you are not alone and together we can educate the world.

Lauren x

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?! Appendicitis August Part 3 ?!

Welcome back fellow bloggers, readers and anyone who suffers from any unseen or invisible illnesses, lets bring you back into the story of the blurred month of August. In my last post I had just described my journey from the clinical decisions unit (CDU) to the short stay unit, to eventually getting to a CDu2 surgical ward after three days of fighting with doctors and nurses.

So lets take it back a little, so I can give you some  more insight into what I endured over that week. It was 11pm when a ward person had come to collect me from (CDU) and transfer me into the Short Stay Ward which was still another part of emergency,once I was settled I sent mum home because it was late. I remember laying there for half an hour uneasy to sleep because I was running back and forth to the toilet whilst trying to wheel a drip with me and not dirty my cloths at the same time. Once I was finally able to stay in my bed for longer then five minutes, I remember calling the nurse for my night time meds because I take amitriptyline (Endep) for my nerve illness. (This medication is used to treat mental/mood problems such as depression. It may help improve mood and feelings of well-being, relieve anxiety and tension, help you sleep better, and increase your energy level. This medication belongs to a class of medications called tricyclic antidepressants. It works by affecting the balance of certain natural chemicals (neurotransmitters such as serotonin) in the brain. Or Nerve Pain. )

The nurse answered and said she would be right with me, when unfortunately her time was suddenly obtained by a woman next to me who seem to be suffering from a fainting spell or was unconscious, I wasn’t too sure what was going on I could only make out bits and pieces of the sounds coming from behind the curtain that came between me and this other patient. I felt sorry for her, I thought yes I am in extreme pain but I also felt sorry for this woman who had only now come back into consciousness and was told she wouldn’t be going home to see her family anymore only for her safety.

I was suddenly interrupted from this hospital daze when a doctor, the young woman gynecologist who was the first person to see me was standing at my door (hospital curtain) She looked at me and said “Frankly I’m surprised you’re still here”  I was still in a shocking amount of pain and she could see it, so I kind of just dismissed her comment because it was late and I was sick of arguing. She did the same external test she had done on me two days prior and same results, she then opted for an internal examination, which as a patient you have to give consent, I was willing to do anything at this point to find out what was wrong with me. She then went away, I had finally just been given my night time medication when another woman appeared, a doctor, a different one. She was a general surgeon she had introduced herself I can’t really remember her name but apparently she remembered me. She said that she had read my hospital files and had found an extensive report that she had written about me back before my nerve problem was diagnosed. She had such a strong female presence about her, she did the same as every other nurse and doctor that had been to see me, I started to sound like a broken record 10/10, yes, excruciating etc and then after a quick examination she said the best words that I have ever heard in my life.

She said “So all that psych stuff is bullshit right?”

It was the first time I had smiled throughout this whole journey and I said yes it is. She said right let me just make a few calls and have a conversation with my boss and I’ll get back to you. I said thank you as she left the room.

By now it was like 12:30/ 1 am, my hospital television was on in the background, I could feel my eyes start to close, I was in an out of a sleep daze, my eyes were closed but I could still hear the different beeps and weird noises that came from each hospital bed. Just before I hit full rem sleep at about 1:30 AM, I was woken up by the same young gynecologist woman who was wearing blue scrubs, a bald Indian man, clothed in black scrubs was standing with her. She introduced him as her boss, he then introduced himself as the head consultant gynecologist at the hospital. She stood behind him at the end of my bed as he listened to my story, I don’t know if she was having a crappy day or if she just didn’t like me but you could tell she didn’t really want to be there as she rolled her eyes as I continued to tell her boss the same story I had been telling.  He then asked me if he could do the same external examination that everyone else had done I said yes. He saw how much pain I was in, constantly crying out when people touched me and even when they didn’t, when they pushed down and when they let go.

He then stood at the foot of my hospital bed and said here is the plan;

“We are going to admit you up into the CDu2 Ward (Surgical Ward), We will keep you up there and try and manage your pain by giving you different strong medications more regularly instead of like here in ED where you only get it when you ask for it, and we hope that by managing your pain it will still get better. You will then be attended to by the doctors on the morning rounds does that sound good?”

I nodded my head yes, I was happy to finally be admitted to a ward, so even though it was such a small win, it was a win after fighting with doctors for three days straight. They left. I then went back to sleep for what literally felt like 2 minutes before a wardy came to collect me. They wheeled me up to a room and I was sharing with an elderly woman who was sound asleep because it was now 2am in the morning. The ward nurses came to see me did my usual obs told me how to use the tv/ computer to order food and to watch tv. They left and I sent mum a message to let her know where about’s in this giant hospital I was now located and I finally went to sleep for that night.

 

This was such a long journey/ month which is why there will be 4 parts, in part 4 I will tell you everything that happened to get to my positive outcome. Please I encourage you all, if you have a story of invisible or unseen illnesses I would love to be able to tell it, share it on this blog. You know your body the best and sometimes you need to fight, believe in yourself, back yourself and together we can educate health professionals and the world.

Lauren x

 

 

The Process to my invisible illness and final diagnosis : ACNE Part 2

Welcome back to the reality of unseen illnesses blog, thanks for reading. In my previous post I started discussing the journey of my invisible illness and how we came to the conclusion that I needed to go to hospital to get some clear answers. This is part two of that story.

Some parts I remember quite vividly and some parts are still very hazy but I shall try and do my best to explain everything to you. It was the day after Katrina’s 17th birthday, I was only 16 at the time and had been staying with my grandparents, they had a friend who was a doctor in neurology who suggested I come in for some tests at Monash Hospital, Clayton, Victoria. I remember being admitted in to emergency quite easily only because my grandfather entered emergency at the same time as me because he had hurt his back. They had already given him so many pain killers that he came round to check up on me and kept asking for my jello which was fine cause I didn’t want it anyway, yet still till this day he claims he never remembers this conversation, he must have been on some pretty powerful stuff.

I wasn’t in ED for very long, I saw a few doctors who saw how much pain I was in they gave me all kinds of medications, even severely strong medications and yet the pain wasn’t any better. They could see that I wasn’t able to walk, shower, eat, dress etc by myself so they soon decided to admit me and transfer me to the children’s ward. I remember travelling in a wheel chair to the lift, going up the lift and entering the children’s ward. The walls were painted yellow and purple , you could see the nurses station as you entered the floor and the starlight room was opposite. They wheeled me down a hallway past all the girls with the eating disorders and into a nice quiet room, with a computer opposite in the hallway that the kids used to study whilst in hospital. I got settled in for a few days, nurses and doctors kept coming in and out trying to do numerous amounts of tests. I don’t remember much as I was on a lot of medicine, which soon switched to IV medicine, it got so bad that morphine didn’t even help me, that they had to put me on a drip that was one thing lower than cannabis, they said to be careful because I could have hallucinated on that drug. I don’t remember seeing anything, but I do remember hallucinating a really bad smell. I only stayed in that room for about a week and then the nurses/doctors decided to transfer me to the other side of the hallway to a room with 3 ten year old’s. Now I had never been a very assertive person before then, I was always quite shy, hiding behind people, was polite and let people some what walk over me and a big part of my illness which I have now grown out of is that I disliked change. So when the nurses/ doctors decided to move me, I finally stood up for myself, not that it did me any good cause I still ended up in that room with the ten year old’s and in retrospect looking back now I probably behaved just as bad as a ten year old.

Once I was finally settled into this new room, I remember bits and pieces of different tests, I remember going up through the chain of doctors till I reached the head of Pain at Monash and the head of Neurology and within no time I had pretty much seen every doctor in that hospital and the whole hospital was taking about me. Some of the test that I had done were so painful, the main ones that still till this day stay stuck in my brain are the most brutal ones. The first one I remember quite clearly was when I got wheeled down to a tiny room where you lay on a bed and they first connect you up to some electrode stuff, then without anesthetic the doctor placed a needle or a rod into my leg and moved it around as if it were a gamer’s joy stick just to find if there was nerve damage. If it wasn’t there before I was certain there would be some after that procedure. I remember coming back from that procedure and I was crying and silent, I would not talk because it was one of the most painful things I had to endure. The second most painful procedure/ test that I remember having done was a Lumbar Puncture which is : The procedure of taking fluid from the spine in the lower back through a hollow needle, usually done for diagnostic purposes.

lumbar puncture

This was one of those unfortunate, unlucky things to happen to me, they had me lay up on a surgical metal type table, just casually left the door open for anyone to come in and see, did not give me any anesthetic before this procedure either and then decided that not 1, not 2, but 3 Interns would attempt to do this painful procedure before getting a head consultant to do it and to make things worse I had singing clown doctors in my face. Now I know the clown doctors were only there to try and help distract me but to someone who is in heaps of pain crying and then sees singing clowns in their face is a bit creepy. To make matters worse after the Lumbar Puncture, I then had to go back to a room full of Ten year old’s with a severe migraine, I wasn’t allowed to move and Nickelodeon had a sponge bob marathon running. Still till this day I hate sponge bob, it was so unbearable that I got up out of my bed and went and laid in the parents room. When I was finally able to return to my room I slept , but when I wasn’t asleep I still had this major headache even on strong pain killers, so the head of Pain came to see me and he said the best thing for it is “Caffeine” apparently caffeine helps migraines. So mum went and brought me some V’s, However because I had been on a cocktail of medicines and now every time a nurse entered my room she told me to chug V, I ended up throwing up so much brown vomit everywhere and have never ever drunk a V again.

I was at Monash for quite a few months, we even celebrated my sister Rachael’s birthday in the Hospital, my Friends from Drama had organised beautiful fake flowers with cute notes on them and my best friends Katrina, Rach and Sharna had organised a very special T-Shirt with drawings and lovely messages from all my friends in and out of school. I still have that shirt till this day and when ever I’m feeling down I just look at that shirt and remember there was a worse time and I will always be loved.

 

 

After a few months of mean physiotherapists, which then changed to a nicer one, harsh drugs, harsh tests and only minor results of finding minimal nerve damage in my legs, the team at Monash decided that I had now become a part of the “Too Hard Basket” ad I was sent to the “Stepping Stones” program, which was basically a mental health rehabilitation area for children and young adults. At this point in my life a major security blanket of mine was my mobile phone. It didn’t even have to be on or anything or even have a battery in it, I just wanted, but because of the no phone rule in the mental health department area they wouldn’t let me have it. I remember being wheeled through the halls, seeing the rooms, I was packed, I had clothes ready to stay and the hospital had even managed to give me a room by myself, but then a thought struck me, I AM NOT CRAZY!. I am not making this up and I do not believe I need to be in here. It was at that moment that I stopped feeling sorry for myself and decided I would get better by myself, so I Opted for out patient psychological help. This is when I truly changed, when I suddenly was able to be assertive and  stand up for myself, its funny you know because when speaking to out patient psychologists they actually said that if I had ever entered and stayed with the stepping stones program it wouldn’t have helped me, it would have actually made it worse.

 

In part 3 of The Process of My Invisible Illness to the final diagnosis: ACNE , I will discuss how I found the most amazing doctor who diagnosed me within less then 10 mins.

Thanks for reading, keep educating people on invisible illnesses.

Lauren x